I hope you cry, my former friend,
I hope you shake and weep
I hope soft sobbing wracks your frame
And keeps you from your sleep
For what you stole, no tore, from me
I find I can't replace
A shining trust I gave to you
Left shattered in your wake
For me, you said you would be there
For me you would be strong
Imagine my distraught on learning
You had done me wrong
You lied to me, and like a fool
I swallowed all your bait
'Twas you who taught me what was cruel;
From you I learned to hate
You took from me an innocence
I know you can't abide
You lost yours long ago, although
You've managed to survive
You see it now as weakness,
You saw me as your prey.
For all I know you planned it so
Down to this very day.
You laugh at me, it's in your eyes,
You puzzle at my pain -
For in your warped and twisted view,
My loss, supposèd gain.
For this alone I hate you
And like all else you touch,
My hatred's a corrupted thing;
Corrupted - by my love.
You stole from me my innocence,
You took away my trust,
But one thing, one! you could not steal:
I had to give you love.
My love's light shines but weakly now
Yet keeps my hate at bay.
The wounds inflicted on my soul
Will soon have healed away.
The scars are there for good, of course;
Life's not without its costs
And I often wonder if I should
Forget all that I've lost.
But I know I can't erase you
From my memories
Anymore than you could wipe
Your own slate clean of me.
I wonder if you cry, my friend.
I wonder: do you weep?
For I know soft sobbing wracks my frame
And keeps me from my sleep.
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