Painful Love Bright sunlight blinds me I drown in light I slip and I'm lost looking Searching Yearning Give it time, they say It will happen when you least expect it, they cry And I want to scream in sunlight: What if I never stop expecting? Cold crisp sharp burn Snap. Crack. Tears fall. Diamonds in sharp sunlight That slice my soul Blood welling in beauty That I cannot see in my lonely misery Feel! I cry. Know! I scream. Face truths you hide from Like shadowy figures shrinking from the burning whitelight I am alone Lone. Lonely. You reject me but all I want is to hold you Feel the pull I feel! Submit to my need! Forevermore no more single, crippled but complete. Gentle skin can be so unkind. How can soft images of you shatter me? Sere scents of you haunt my senses Flash brilliant your smile, laugh, frown, yawn. Curled up in an isolated ball/bubble that I cannot breach Because you push me away. Passionless painful pyre that purges hope, salvation, and joy Expectations shatter: Why have I done this to myself? Why have you done this to me? I suffer all the pain; internalise all the hurt. I want to cry. Why can't I cry my sorrow-shattered joy lies broken in sharp shards Slicing my. . . me. . . mine. Why? By Title By Chronology By Category
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